My Lost Drug

The wind caresses the last words you spoke to me

Our final parting was bittersweet with only me regretting those last memories

I couldn’t say how I really felt-

And now only your scent lingers

Truthfully, I was afraid

No, more than afraid, I was frightened

I loved you, but not enough to know you

I loved you and your onlys

Your glance that stopped my heart

Your voice that lulled me to sleep

But I never took the time to comprehend what they truly meant

When you left, my life became meaningless

Your scent, your smile, your warmth

I feel you everywhere no matter where or when, I’m constantly reminded of you

I’m frozen in a sea of lost memories

Drowning as I cling onto these drugs

Why can’t I let you go?

The more I fell in love,

The more I learned about you,

The more emotionally invested I became in you

That scared me–paralyzed me. Why?

I was frightened to know the real you

I didn’t want to be rejected

Only 1 out of many you will meet on this journey

My chest throbs knowing I already lost you

When you left, my life became meaningless

Your scent, your smile, your warmth

I feel you everywhere no matter where or when,

I’m constantly reminded of you

I’m frozen in a sea of lost memories

Drowning as I cling onto these drugs

Why can’t I let go?

Lately, I’ve been able to forget about you

But one familiar touch, one familiar laugh

Unleashes pent up sentiments

What you’re doing?

Where are you?

Do you think of me?

I desperately want to feel your warmth again

But the connection is severed

When you left, my life became meaningless

Your scent, your smile, your warmth

I feel you everywhere no matter where or when,

I’m constantly reminded of you

I’m frozen in a sea of lost memories

Drowning as I cling onto these drugs

Why can’t I let go?

Why? My heart still doesn’t understand.