Too Much

Did I ask too much?

Did I expect too much?

My heart strives to understand what went wrong

Maybe I was too forward?

Or really too weak?

Questions repeat in a constant cycle

But no answers come forth

 

Constraints link us with others

Just as it linked me to you

The times were sweet and warm

Our motto: Ignorance is bliss

We overlooked flaws and mistakes

As we were both too weak to confront them

But now the link is broken

 

Did I ask too much?

Did I expect too much

My heart strives to understand what went wrong

Maybe I was too forward?

Or really too weak?

Questions repeat in a constant cycle

But no answers come forth

 

The times turn bitter as each encounter leaves us sour

We grew tired of each other and drifted away

Promising we will meet again

That falls through as tomorrow changes into next year

Flowers die to be replaced by falling leaves

But why do I feel frozen in that time?

 

 

Did I ask too much?

Did I expect too much

My heart strives to understand what went wrong

Maybe I was too forward?

Or really too weak?

Questions repeat in a constant cycle

But no answers come forth

 

Constraints are a barrier between me and you

It becomes a web of social strain

We seek to gratify ourselves through others

That was my mistake, that was our mistake

We sought exaggerated expectations

Full of the ignorance of babes

Still, it would be nice to see you again

 

 

Did I ask too much?

Did I expect too much

My heart strives to understand what went wrong

Maybe I was too forward?

Or really too weak?

Questions repeat in a constant cycle

But no answers come forth

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My Hope

Once again we meet by the window side. We stare pleasantly across the glass.

As usual you make faces as I laugh along with the beat of my earphones. Our

images connect in comprehension. But once again, it’s time for goodbyes. As

my music fades away, you fade along with it.

 

They say goodbyes are the start of a new beginning, but I believe we never ended.

I still hold a wish deep in my heart–a hope. My hope is that we will meet again. I’m

sure  of it as day turns to night. As sure as life and death. My hope continues to grow

as memories of you flood over our glass window. I may not have been able to hear.

You may not have been able to see. But I hope we will each be able to convey words

and images lost across that window side. Words and images that conveyed for the last

time a goodbye and you–my hope.

Salty Memento

Laying in my bed, I’m a slave to sleep

The drowsiness of another day’s burden weighs me down

The world too is carrying a burden

Only tangibly felt by the grey wet sky

As I lay consumed with a heaviness only my heart understands

My thoughts slowly turn to you

 

Fights, mocking music, and harsh words

Echo in my ears clenching my heart with unrest

Water drips contently down my nose into my mouth

A salty memento of you

 

I’ll admit, I was weak and selfish

I only thought of myself

Those gifts, those hugs, those exchanges of sweet words

Only served to gratify me, not you

Those memories of love combust  after one bad word, one bad joke

We fought, you disappear, I thought I understood, but it appears my heart doesn’t

 

Fighting mocking music and harsh words

Echo in my ears, clenching my heart with unrest

Water drips contently down my nose into my mouth

A salty memento of you

 

But these lost times of happiness

Can’t be lost in these bad days, these bad times

Your laugh and the way you cutely scrunch up your eyes

Your love of music and your affinity with ice cream

I miss them all

So please, let’s not leave behind bad memories

Let’s forget for now and create new memories

 

Memories of love are doused by tears

After one shy smile, after one good word

We surrendered, we came together, we thought we understood, but we didn’t—

Our hearts did