Crying After Thoughts

I just had a good cry. I was doing my homework when I felt a sudden urge to cry. I waited until I finished to lay down and just cry. I’m now listening to Standing Egg’s Nobody Knows (a Korean Indie group). The song pretty much matches my sentiments right now…

~sigh~

I’m sick of myself, but when have I EVER felt great about myself. I want to lose weight, I want to have semi-long hair, I want to be a bit lighter in color, I want this, I want that.

God, shut up! You’re such a…

I can’t write it down, but I will think it and plenty more. Don’t be so material…

Questions that may never be answered:

  • What good am I?
  • Why am I still here?
  • Why am I cold all the time?
  • Why have I been like this since the beginning?
  • Will I ever be the me I want?