Listen

Traveling farther and farther away

Has always been my wish

It went like this day by day

With you denying me of that right

You selfishly dissuaded me not to take flight

Vocalizing your own wants and desires

Without burdening the other with miseries

We decided it’d be best to hunt our dreams

 

We listened, but waited

We thought it fair to live in our dreams

Selfishly hurting others as long as we achieved them

We listened, but waited

We listened, but waited

We waited for that someone, that voice to wake us up

 

Lately, I realized my mistake

Traveling so far away to a land far far away

Was just an excuse to run away

I was scared and broken—crushed by a weight that was yours and mine

Forgive me, forgive me, but listen—

 

 

We listen, but waited

We thought it fair to live in our dreams

Selfishly hurting others to achieve them

We listened, but waited

We listened, but waited

We waited for that someone, that voice to wake us up

 

My dream was a lonely one—same as yours

In capitulation, we come together

Finally listening to each others voices

Constantly, we dream together through our voices

 

 

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How Unfair

Petals have yet to bloom in this late winter

But soft kisses of warmth awaken me from my sleepy winter haze

The grey sky opens up to reveal blue showers

A rain on our parade

But we contently greet the Spring morning

 

A fresh start, new beginnings, a brand new chance at life

But those are pushed away

Cause with this new season memories of you return

 

How unfair that we can’t be together

How unfair that we can’t stay away

Only with this brand new season—

This renewed start—

That we can finally connect again

 

Flowers respond to our whims in full bloom

Days turn warmer but bring their own tears of heartbreak

They mourn for lost souls like us

Torn apart by natural forces we can’t stop

Mother nature is so unfair

 

How unfair that we can’t be together

How unfair that we can’t stay away

Only with this brand new season—

This renewed start—

That we can finally connect once again

 

The scorching pain of summer

The chill of autumn

And the dark days of winter

Pull us away

As we wistfully wait for Spring day

Mother nature may be unfair

But aren’t we unfair for doings this to ourselves?

 

How unfair that we can’t be together

How unfair that we can’t stay away

But with this brand new season—

And many to come—

When we finally stay together again

 

A Singing Waltz

Your singing voice awakens sweet memories of nostalgia

As you hold me comfortingly on this sunny day

My worries and fears melt into your arms

As tears that were held back for too long

I won’t lie—I want to stay like this forever

 

Lazily snoozing away, I drift away into my dreams

In my dream, we dance a waltz together under the lights of thousands

But we don’t care, we don’t care

As long as I have your voice to guide my steps,

I’m sure we will be able to overcome anything

 

Still, I was too selfish,

I depended on you too much,

So that I overlooked your fears

 

The day your words became tears

The day your smiles turned to frowns

The day you stopped singing

Was the day I became lost

 

In my dream, our waltz is rudely interrupted under a blanket of darkness

But we care, we care now

Your voice fades away to silence

Locked away in the depths of your heart

Without you, I stumble, I trip, I fall

The tears threaten to return, but

Seeing your pain hurts even more

What can I do?

 

The day I started to sing with all my might

The day you started to listen

The day we came together

Our voices joined as one

Let’s not close ourselves off to pain

Let’s share it together so the burden isn’t too heavy

With you by my side and I by yours,

We can overcome and write our own song

As we sing along to the tune of life

A Love Lost

We hold each other close to find our missing warmth

It seems too late

As we remain half submerged under the weight of the world

Why are we here?

How did it get to this?

We ask as our frozen hearts connect

Frozen in place, I shut myself off in a secluded corner—

Shutting out the false love of others

Thoughts change into confusion

Confusion changes into frustration as I claw at the inerasable memories of pain

Then you found me

Embracing until we can’t breath

Warmth fill these rusted cold bones

Our closed off hearts connect as one anxious to find another’s attraction

We are all beings seeking to love and be loved

Lost and confused, we ride along to the whims of the world

Helpless like leaves carried by the river’s currents

But it doesn’t have to be like this,

No, it shouldn’t be like this

Why do we feel at times that we are incapable of love

And of receiving love

When we ourselves have carried this sentiment in our hearts

Since the day we were born

It just lays huddled in a deep sleep within us all

Just waiting, waiting as we wait for the lost warmth

You found me submerged under the weight of the world

You, like I, was lost and confused

Seeking a missing warmth

In this world, we protectively embrace each other

Hoping to find a love lost to a numbing pain

It shouldn’t be like this, we shouldn’t be like this

Our hearts finally respond to the beacon of love

Salty Memento

Laying in my bed, I’m a slave to sleep

The drowsiness of another day’s burden weighs me down

The world too is carrying a burden

Only tangibly felt by the grey wet sky

As I lay consumed with a heaviness only my heart understands

My thoughts slowly turn to you

 

Fights, mocking music, and harsh words

Echo in my ears clenching my heart with unrest

Water drips contently down my nose into my mouth

A salty memento of you

 

I’ll admit, I was weak and selfish

I only thought of myself

Those gifts, those hugs, those exchanges of sweet words

Only served to gratify me, not you

Those memories of love combust  after one bad word, one bad joke

We fought, you disappear, I thought I understood, but it appears my heart doesn’t

 

Fighting mocking music and harsh words

Echo in my ears, clenching my heart with unrest

Water drips contently down my nose into my mouth

A salty memento of you

 

But these lost times of happiness

Can’t be lost in these bad days, these bad times

Your laugh and the way you cutely scrunch up your eyes

Your love of music and your affinity with ice cream

I miss them all

So please, let’s not leave behind bad memories

Let’s forget for now and create new memories

 

Memories of love are doused by tears

After one shy smile, after one good word

We surrendered, we came together, we thought we understood, but we didn’t—

Our hearts did

Let’s Share A Memory

Let’s share a memory together

A memory filled with emotions of times gone by

I realize I’m too late to reach you

But with this song I wish to convey

Unspoken words, ideas, and sentiments

My memory begins like a movie

The actors take their places

And perform—captivating the audience

Music plays softly in the background

The opening credits begin to roll

And I—I’m detached from it all

I see you and me and what we could have been

I see you form words of frustration at my careless indifference

You grow tired of my coldness and clumsy words and left

But the truth was…I was listening carefully

Let’s share a memory together

A memory lost in transit by my internal battle

I realize I’m too late to reach you

But with this song, I wish to convey

My unspoken words and sentiments

Speaking was difficult—

You were expressive, I was blunt

Social functions together was difficult

You embraced people, I shunned crowds

Wanting to be more like you

Somehow drew us apart

Your memory fades away like a cherry blossom

It blooms forth bright and young

Only to dissipate in such a short time

My carelessness with myself closed you

You left never fully understanding me

Let’s share a memory together by my internal battle

I realize I’m too late to reach you

But through this I want to convey a lost memory

Filled with unspoken words and sentiments

With gentle expressive love

A Mixtape’s Stupidity

Tell me the words I need to hear

Not a sharp discord

Not a broken record

No, not even a pitiful chorus

What I want to hear is just you

I thought I loved you

As the distance closed between us

I remember the warmth of the new Spring

We experienced together

The splashes of ice cream on your face

And the mixtape you shared with me

Your entire being locked into one little tape

My own personal portable you

The melodies mixed with your carefully chosen lyrics poured into me

I felt breathless, carried away by the rhythm of you

Tell me the words I need to hear

Not a sharp discord

Not a broken record

No, not even a pitiful chorus

What is it I want to hear–just you

I realized how stupid I was

Staring into the mirror and seeing nothing

Your mixtape was to complement me

But I’m only left with empty words and a discord

The words you shed became old, wrinkled, and overused for another, not me

I wanted to hear you–

My love, my one-sided love

I wanted to hear the sincerity

But like an unfinished mixtape

You played with my emotions and left me dissonant