I Will Stay

Even now I can’t get the right words out

Still to be heard I will scream and shout

I need you to know now

That I love you without a doubt

I need you to know now

That we will survive this love drought

 

I don’t ever want to separate like this

Goodbyes were about to be said

But let’s reminisce

Memories of you weigh heavy like lead

Like the day we sang together in bliss

Or the night we stayed out instead

When I received those tears through that kiss

All lead up to this moment of fate

 

Let our hands never stray

Or our hearts ever rend

Here I will stay

So don’t say, “Goodbye” in pretend

Your tears never wanted to let go

So now you know, now you know

I will never go away

I will never stray

I will stay with you day after day

 

 

I know fate connected us

Though I was shy and naïve

A wanderer that forgot how to trust

You taught me to believe

How to feel, how to love which was a must

Thank you for letting me be me

 

So when you left, I was lost

Why did you leave?

What did it cost?

Questions only lead to grief

When you returned, you were lost

Why did I leave?

At what cost?

Questions only deceive

But now we are together again, so—

 

Let our hearts never stray

Or our hearts ever rend

Here I will stay

So don’t say, “Goodbye” in pretend

Your tears never wanted to let go

So now you know, now you know

I will never go away

I will never stray

I will stay with you forever and a day

 

 

 

Go Away

This is so frustrating

Why can’t you leave me alone?

This pain is aching

Emotions turn cold

While I suppress my love

 

I want to push you away

Push you away

But you appear day by day

Just please go away

Please go away

I want to remain sane this May

For today, just go away

 

Don’t touch me

It only hurts

Don’t look at me

That leave me out of sorts

Don’t compliment me

They are only lies that contorts

I will never trust you

I will never love you

 

I want to push you away

Push you away

But you appear day by day

But please go away

Please just go away

I want to be sane this May

For today, just go away

 

I hate you

For giving me a false hope

I hate you

For making me not cope

I hate you

For making me hang by a rope

I hate you, but I tried

Only to cry dreams that died

 

I want to push you away

Push you away

But you appear day by day

Just please go away

Please go away

I want to remain sane this May

For today, just go away

Stay Away

I want to see you

These words repeat in a infinite melody

My heart fails to see what’s true

That you’re not here to make my day

Since it couldn’t continue

 

This year marks the end

But I still have my love to send

I’m scared, I’m frightened

Don’t love me in pretend

This pain won’t mend

It hurts, it only hurts in the end

But I can’t stay away

 

Your gestures of affection

The sound of your voice

Was just an awful manipulation

It was a mess of noise

Of sick emotion

Of sick love

 

This year marks the end

But I still have my love to send

I’m scared, I’m frightened

Don’t love me in pretend

It hurts, it only hurts in the end

But why can’t I stay away

 

Don’t screw with me

I believed in you and your lies

I was a fool to trust your way

So let’s cut ties

I want to be saved right away

But not by you

No, it can’t be by you

 

I knew I wasn’t capable of being loved

But for once I wanted to believe

That someone actually cared

But now I see there’s no relief

 

This year marks the end

But I still have my love to send

I’m scared, I’m frightened

Don’t love me in pretend

This pain won’t mend

IT hurts, it only hurts in the end

But I need to stay away

 

Sunday Brunch

The kitchen heats up with your skillful movements

Like a dancer waltzing across the stage

You handle the cutlery like a samurai

But handle the food with a mother’s care

 

It’s a Sunday brunch made with careful planning

For your love who is demanding

Although she didn’t feel the same

Although it was a danger to try again and again

Your strawberry pie finally melts her heart

 

She loves food, but not you

Crepes, muffins, parfaits, cakes

Makes her mouth water with hunger

You hate food but not her

Waffles, cupcakes, yogurt, pies

Make your stomach turn over

Still you love her

So you pick up your knife

To begin on creating your masterpiece

 

It’s a Sunday brunch made with careful planning

For your love who is demanding

Although she didn’t feel the same

Although it was a danger to try again and again

Your strawberry pie finally melts her heart

 

Spilled milk was cried over

She leaves your brunch

You realize your mistake

Changing for someone doesn’t mean a happy ending

You put down you knife

 

Returning to the kitchen was a burden

But enticed by a mother’s cooking kept you sane

As you fall in love once again

 

It’s a Sunday brunch made with careful planning

For your love who is demanding

Although she didn’t feel the same

Although it was a danger to try again and again

Your strawberry pie finally melted her heart

(And only that)

 

Simple Curiosity

Attention please, I have a confession to make—

I’m a stalker (well, sort of)

Let’s not throw me in jail just yet

Because, aren’t we all stalkers at some point?
I watched you from afar

Not out of love but not out of hate

But out of simple curiosity

So then why? Why is it that my heart constricts

When I hear your voice?

Why is it that when you look my way

My face becomes flushed?

My eyes drift to the floor

And I realize, my own body is betraying me

 

Okay, so I admitted I’m a stalker

Now it’s your turn

Tell me your dark secret—

Don’t be shy

Wait, if I’m your stalker, the does that make you…

A celebrity? Maybe

The hero? Maybe

The doctor who cured the common cold? Maybe

No, you’re the culprit who stole me senses and I want them back

I watched you from afar

Not out of love but not out of hate

But out of simple curiosity

So then why? Why is it that my heart constricts

When I hear your voice?

Why is it that when you look my way

My face becomes flushed?

My eyes drift to the floor

And I realize, my own body is betraying me

 

So I’m going crazy—I’m sick

What started off as a simple diagnosis of curiosity worsened

It became a plague I couldn’t control—love

Are these feelings notions of love?

I think I’m falling for you

 

I watched you from afar

Not out of love but not out of hate

But out of simple curiosity

So then why? Why is it that my heart constricts

When I hear your voice?

Why is it that when you look my way

My face becomes flushed?

My eyes drift to the floor

And I realize, my own body is betraying me

Vanilla Kiss

Sweet as salt

Is the way I would describe this day

As I sit on this bench protected by your embrace

Blanketed by snow

My heart is at ease

The taste of vanilla is on my lips

Bitter as sugar

We don’t want to let go

 

One day (one day), I hope we can be like the stars

Far away but never forgotten

Twinkling like the falling snow right in front of us

Your vanilla kiss seals away my love with trust

 

We are toasty and warm

Sipping Udon noodles on this frosty winter night

You sing softly off-key as the restaurant’s heat warms us up

Each note, each noodle strand brings me closer to you

 

One day (one day), I hope we can be like the stars

Far away but never forgotten

Twinkling like the falling snow right in front of us

Your vanilla kiss seals away my love with trust

Now sitting on this bench alone

The taste of vanilla is sweet as salt

The warmth feels like ice

The snow has turned to rain

And my heart is uneasy

However, this distance separating us

Never lets me forget your vanilla kiss

 

One day (one day), I hope we can be like the stars

Far away but never forgotten

Twinkling like the falling snow right in front of us

Your vanilla kiss seals away my love with trust

 

Finally, I know what it’s like to be in love

 

Across the Divide

Again I stand across the divide

Heart pounding, nerves pumping

I can’t let go of this impossible burden

It seems I wasn’t too good at keeping you close

Keeping you loved

Keeping you understood

 

We’re alike and I

We shared an affinity for music

Your melody with my poetry created a song

A song that even the heavens were jealous of

Is that why we were cruelly ripped apart?

Were the angels jealous of what we created together?

Did the turn our harmony into empty chords?

 

Once again, I shout out to you across the divide

But you become glass—broken and still

Only reflecting me

I need you, please don’t leave me alone

In a world tuned out to comprehension

I thought we could create the perfect song

Still, we remain separated composing on divergent tracks

 

We are different you and I

I couldn’t overlook the physical despite our musicality

Your pale hands brushing the surface of the piano expertly

Stabs my broken heart with each note you play

Hammering out each difference day to day

Killing any thoughts of similarity

 

Once again, I shout out to you across the divide

But you become glass—broken and still only reflecting me

I need you, please don’t leave me alone

In a world tuned out to comprehension

I thought we would create the perfect song

Still, we remain separated composing on divergent tracks

 

I know you won’t come back

I know we will never be together again

I know you won’t forgive me

Our differences turned our song into a tragedy

That was my malady

 

I couldn’t reach you across the divide

Too white, too thin, too perfect to break

It mirrored what I couldn’t have

But mirrored what you had

That was my malady

My loss, your reward

And now it ends in a song of discord